Afterglow

Now that I sit & wonder
how time passes so fast
random frames of time lost memories
captivate my mind
appear, stay & vanish
like strobing flashlights..

Blinding me from the factual world
making me forget my earthly plights…

So fast time passed by
So soon we’d to say goodbye
So easily we broke our hearts
So hard it was for us to part….

Remember we first sensed
the longing for each other
filled among ourselves,
each one’s emptiness together…

Finding stupid reasons
just to meet
& celebrating the stupidity
like fools in a fleet…

Bunking the lectures
showing up the next day
standing with dropped heads
all in dismay…

Eye candy in the classroom
pretending guilty
though not a bit
frowning faces like shit…

Wodeva…. But enjoying the play
& bunking again the next day..

Those naughty gestures
when a pal’s crush appeared
& sudden burst out
the moment she disappeared..

The trend didn’ end
Just the victims changed…

Waiting outside the cinema hall
for the last guy to appear
but what compensated for the missed show
was seeing all again together…

Eleven freaks
Eleven birthdays
At least eleven righteous days
to celebrate every year…

Struggled hard to wish the first
waiting calls often got cursed!

But so fast time passed by
So soon we had to say goodbye
So easily we broke our hearts
So hard it was for us to part…

Helplessly we watch when from nowhere
a teardrop trickles down
and reflects those moments so special
the only valuables we own..

Miss those pats on back
so inspiringly they hurt..
Miss those friendly scolds
Trickles of care they did squirt…

Time’s made us so helpless
nothing we can do
Unwilling goodbyes & fake smiles that we waste
Trouble us inside
we stay blank outside…

It’d happen one day
we always knew..
But blindfolded by our love
We were too scared to beleive…

Its hard to believe
that things no longer would be the same
to no one we can complain
no one to blame…

As our love for each other
pampered us to grow & thrive
So will it heal our broken hearts
& empower us to survive…

So fast time passes by
so soon friends say goodbye
so easily they break their hearts
its always painful for them to part…..

-Nero

My Girl…

She lived like a pearl
in her tender shell…
Losing her own little melodies
to violent echoes of the ocean knell…

Every deep ocean torrent
scared her delicate heart..
She again used to find
a safer place of her part…

She was happy inside her shell
She didn’t want the whole world
How could an angel live in hell?
I was so worried about my girl…

Once a tide so enormous arose
& filched her little shell
from the solace that she chose..
Again on the ocean’s mercy
Her praying eyes she closed..

The devilish turbulence
finally vanished with a roar..
Laughed as if proud
of the solemnity it tore…

She heard calm, and slowly
she opened her eager eyes..
Only to find that her little shell
was thrust to the shore…

Now with tears in her eyes she waits
for the tidal arms with a hope..
That they will rise some day
to embrace & take her back home..

She’s crying in her shell
she has nowhere to go..
so she’s begging for hell
the only place she knows..

She was happy inside her shell
She didn’t want the whole world
& now she’s begging for hell
I am so worried about My Girl…

-Nero..

Love- The Dreaded..

A dire dusk at the sea shore
We both meet
But for the last time it seems..

Silence is all that we hear
To look me in my blank eyes
she fears…
The blinding shine in my tearful eyes
she’s unable to bear…

She’d decided to end the bond we shared…
I weep.. I see dread…

She said she had dreams to chase
but what about me, I am tossed in a maze..

I also had a dream
from the day I first saw her
A dream to marry her….

To walk away for her was so easy
how I was torn inside she could never see…

Why you came in my life?
Why you showed me eluding dreams?
If all you wanted to do
was to shake me off you..

Can you return me back those moments we shared?

The supple touch of your palm
on my forehead
when I rested in calm
under the thick shade of your hair…

The way you calmed me down
the way I loved your voice
the way kissed
the way to each other we missed
the way you held me tight
the way we had silly fights…

I’m addicted to them
I’m addicted to You
How could it be the same?
How could you just leave?

But these questions & my heavy grief
I swallow inside & give in to my fate
My heart was only made to love her
Not to hate…

So I faked a smile
pretended to look fine
She set herself free from my love
Me still caught in her’s…

Rip open my heart & escape
I promise I’d never ask ‘Why’?
Chase your dreams my love
Step on me & fly to the sky…

Without a word she walked away
for the last time
I watched her beautiful dress sway
and with her every step
I watched falls of my castles of clay…

Finally the setting sun followed me
& we both disappeared in the same sea..

This time she wasn’t there
so the sea wiped away my tears…

-Nero..

God Resides in…

Restless days and sleepless nights
I spent to know where the answer lies
For the Question, “Where does God reside?”

To different nations I traveled
Across the seas I sailed
But to know the abode of Mighty Lord
Every time I failed..

Compelled by my mind’s Thirst
I asked A Good Old Priest
He replied with most Dignified Words
“The Answer you will find, my child
When you’d generous and kind..”

I tried to be generous and kind
And then I sensed the Mighty Lord
Right within my beating heart..

And then I knew that God resides

In the heart where kindness hides..

-Nero..

The Unsaid..

There are things I loved to do
‘coz i did those things for you..
But see my fate, unnoticed I go
Baby I Love You, but you never know..

All those things I did for you
I never let You know..
‘coz my heart, this innocent Heart
Never allowed me
to do so..

‘coz all I wanted was..
To win you..
Not to claim..
To make you mine..
Not to fake..

So one hard day
I prepared for the worst
& finally dared to say
those three magical words..

All that kept my hope on test
was another honest hope
A hope that all I did for You
Would never go waste..

I hoped this belief of mine
Would make everything fine..
My pure faith in you
was all that made
A ray of hope to Shine..
An engraved hope
That you would be mine…

But suddenly another dice was rolled
By my cursed fate
When my eager ears heard
That it was far too late…

My heart skipped a beat
Blood drained out its walls. .
I forgot the meaning to exist..

Oh sky! fall & crush me!
Oh earth! swallow me..

All I could do was to wait for time
To squeeze my life out of me..

See how helpless you made me
Such helpless no one can ever be
As you stay in my Soul my dear
Even Death can’t help me..

All those things I loved to do
‘coz i did those things for you
Those things I didn’t let You know
‘Coz My heart,
in madness of your love
Never allowed me to do so..

But those things still Unsaid
Like worms they will crawl
and infect my mind
until I am dead
Oh! I wish I was dead…

-Nero